Reflecting and Rerouting… Thoughts on Enoughness

What if you are enough?

I am noticing my thoughts today . . . I catch myself thinking - “I am not doing enough. I am not good enough. I should be done with this already. I should have figured that out by now. I need to practice more. Maybe I should just quit.”

These thoughts are not new thoughts. I learned to think them long ago. They are reoccurring because I have learned to practice them, not because they are true. They are a pattern because I have heard and seen them dance across the minds and lips are people close to me, people far from me. They are thought patterns. They are not a reality. They are one perception of what is moving in and around in this life.

I am looking at photos and reading journal entries today . . . 1 year, 3 years, 5 years ago, I was caught myself thinking - “I am not doing enough. I am not good enough. I wish I was … I wish I could … I wish I didn’t always … I should have done . . . Maybe I should just quit.”

Yet now, I notice new things that I hadn’t seen in those moment. I did so many things. I connected with people I loved. I worked hard in ways that I didn’t think I could. I kept trying when I thought I might quit. I found new ways of being when others didn’t work for me.

I was enough. I was doing enough. I didn’t need to be inherently different. I was worthy of kindness. I was worthy of having patience with myself. I was likeable. I didn’t need to offer more. I was already on the path to my purpose. I figured things out. I messed up and I was okay in time. I learned a lot.

Perhaps this means that today, I am an enough, I can lean into the joy that is present, I can celebrate the hardships passed, I can know that I am bringing myself as I am in ways that I will look back on with pride. I am ALWAYS learning and I will never know everything - I want to be proud of myself for where I am at right now.

What if TODAY you remembered that you are actually enough?